yeah, iām turning 20 on 4th of july and it doesnāt feel real tbh. i moved out under a month from when i turned 18 and kinda just threw myself off a cliff to learn how to fly, if that makes sense xD
now, i yesterday came to the realisation that i might graduate early and that is a terrifying thought to me. iāve pretty much identified as a student for so long that i might just stretch my studies to graduate half a year later than i could, so i really get where you come from. well, i have the luxyry of having some kind of say on when the occasion is, and you donāt, but i feel like what you described is pretty much how iām feeling rn about my graduation;
i wouldnāt be a student anymore, iād be a āproper adultā with a job - or at least, i hope i would have a job. i wouldnāt get any monetary support from the government, iād be fully responsible on earning my food and the money to pay my bills from then on. and i have no idea what i want to do with my life!
so, i can definitely relate on some level. maybe it would help to differentiate what scares you and how you could influence it? i can tell you, age doesnāt really matter, but the big decisions and events in your life define you more (in my experience, ofc. canāt speak for anyone else).
Honestly 18 yr olds have it rough. Theyāre suddenly thrown into the āadultā world after being hand-held all their life. The hand gets let go and theyāre gonna be pressured to go to college, learn how loans work, get a job, get a car, find out how to do taxes, move out and find an apartment, and all these other real world things that NO ONE teaches you in high school. Soon, you wonāt have time for things you love to do whether that be crocheting or hanging out with friends. So yeah, being 18 is really scary lol Sadly, most 18 yr olds kind of struggle to learn all these things at once and get āleft behindā when they donāt because the rest of the world doesnāt wait for them.
With that said, itās always important to ask questions. No questions are stupid. Sadly, people will try to feed you the wrong information so itās always important to ask the same questions to someone else. Never stop asking for help and you will be fine :)
Yeah, it just all feels weird. Like, my cousins are all grown up. The same cousin I would go frog hunting at night at our camp with, now has a baby. All my friends are getting older and going off to college and graduating HS. (Iām graduating next year.) I just feel left behind. I donāt wanna lose my few close friends. I kinda just wish everything could go back to the way it was when I was younger.
Ikr. Iām 16 and I canāt believe that. I donāt know when did I grew up. Soon Iāll be an adult too and have even more responsibilities and I donāt know how in the world Iāll handle it. Iāve been struggling with life as long as I can remember, and I donāt know how itās gonna be when I have to figure it all by myself :[
