Hello everyone!
I’m going to be sharing my testimony on this post. I have never really gone in depth before about my testimony and honestly I don’t really want to. But the Lord is telling me I need to share it, if it encourages or leads even one person to Christ that is all I pray.
Before I begin I just wanted to point out that this is not to be boastful, nor to draw attention to myself. All I want is to share how I came to Christ. I will be talking about some sensitive subjects including mental health, if that is triggering in anyway for you this is your warning. Please be kind, this is hard to share and very vulnerable for me to talk about. 
Here we go…
Since the beginning I’ve always been a “Christian” now I say this because my family and I always went to church and did all the right things. We were “good” people. To say the least I was lukewarm most of my life, I knew God but didn’t have a relationship and it became more of a religion. That’s how most of my life was, comfortable and steady. And even thought we were Christians we were worldly. Fast forward to 2020, this is where things started to go downhill. Because of all the isolation like many other people I began feeling lonely. Over time I became more and more overcome with anxiety because of the world around me, extreme depression took over my life along with all the other mental problems that come with depression. I began hating God, I called out to him with anger and sadness asking “God why are you letting me be this way, why are these things happening to me?” “If you were a loving God why would you allow this?” So I turned from God, I looked for ways to heal my mind but nothing seemed to work. Every day I woke up wishing I hadn’t. I hit rock bottom and I never thought I would be able to be happy again. My Mom saw my pain and she was just beginning to start a true real and new relationship with Christ. She shared things with me from the Bible to encourage me, but I hated it. It was annoying to me and I thought “How could this possibly fix me?” Over time things very slowly started to get better. My Mother was praying over me and I know she was also praying for me behind closed doors. I don’t know how but by some miracle I starting to listen more to what she was teaching me and I started accepting God slowly into my life again. ONLY by the grace of God was I saved. If it wasn’t for him I don’t know where I would be today or if I even would be here. September of 2021 I handed my life over to Christ and got baptized to declare it. I haven’t been perfect and there were times where I strayed away. But now more than ever this year I have grown so close to God. I cannot even describe it.
I pray that someone will feel encouraged by my short version testimony. This is not my story but Gods and he is continuing to write it as I am writing this. If you have any other questions about my testimony please feel free to reach out, I’m willing to answer any questions. And if you made it this far thank you for reading it means a lot to me. 
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