I dont think many people know what I’m talking about when I say “RSD” so I decided to shed some light on it or at least talk about my experiences with it.
For starters, it stands for “rejection sensitive dysphoria.” And no it does not just mean youre sensitive to a break up or a rejection by a crush that’s not what it means. It means that when someone tells you you made a little itty bitty mistake, your brain decides that they now hate you. Just to put it simply.
Now I know it doesnt sound all that bad just from that little explanation there, but just wait until you hear what it has done in my life. So I have this friend who gets here in the mornings a couple minutes after me and he always makes fun of me liking (insert other friend here) by saying: “imagine likeing someone who is too lazy for a relationship.” And it’s every morning y’all. And I really don’t like it when he says that but my RSD won’t let me talk to him about it. It has led to my friend telling him about it for me.
Another instance was in chorus a week or so ago. I was crocheting because that class sucks and its the only thing that actually makes it bareable. And Ms Rebillas told me to put it up. That sounds reasonable, right. Just put it up. Well I put it up but was this close to tears because of it. Again in that same class period, I asked to go to the bathroom but some other chick was already out so I had to wait. Again. Seems very mundane, right? Wrong. Again was pretty close to tears so when I did go after she got back, I just sat on the pot chilling because I needed a break from that class.
When your parents scold you over something stupid like IXLs, you feel bad right- or something along those lines at least. Well my *nuerospicy butt has had many **meltdowns over that. And just getting scolded in general. Like y’all don’t understand how bad RSD is.
Footnotes:
*another, funnier, word for neurodivergent. Like autism, ADHD, down syndrome, etc etc.
**DIFFERENT FROM A TANTRUM. Is uncontrollable and an emotional reaction. A tantrum is when you cry to get something; manipulation of sorts. Is very common in neurodivergent individuals.
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