Is this really what I want to do?
What I want to do with my life?
Do I even know what I want to do with my life?
Do I really want to go to my dream college,
Get my dream job,
Possibly make a difference
I’d have to work harder since I’m a woman
Going into a career filled with men
I love science, yet
I don’t know if I want my dream job
It’s not that I think I can’t do it,
It’s that I’m afraid,
What if I work my hardest to get into my dream college
Get my dream job
Yet, it’s not what I want?
What if what I want isn’t my dream college or my dream job
Do I really know what I want?
What if my life isn’t fulfilled with what I think I want
What if what I think I want was put into my head
From others telling me
“you’re going places”
“You will do great things in this world”
“You should do this or that”
And “you’ll thrive in life and the science field”
Yet, I feel it’s not what I want
Maybe what I want is what others don’t expect me to do
What if I want to be a teacher?
It sounds dumb from what everyone else wants me to do
But maybe I don’t want to be a microbiologist engineer
Or a career in bio engineering
Maybe what I want is something simple,
A low paying job,
But will they support me?
I know my moms told me she’ll support me no matter what I choose as a career
But that’s when I thought I wanted to be in the science field
And have a career in bio engineering
But maybe I don’t want that
Will she support me?
Or will she not approve?
It’s my life not hers,
But what do I want to do with my life?
I don’t want to disappoint anyone,
But at the same time,
I just don’t know what I want to do with my life
Or if it will even be fulfilled with my dream college and dream job
I don’t want to work hard for something I might not even want
But at the same time,
I don’t know what I want
I don’t know what I want to do with my life
sending hugs