Hewo everyone!!!
This is the tenth poetry comp, and this week’s prompt was How to Say Goodbye.
Last week’s winner was @CrochetCritters04 and here is their poem if you would like to read it!
Dear Sadness
Dear Sadness,
I was so young when we met,
Just a five year old girl at her grandmother’s bedside,
Scared and alone.
I didn’t know you, and you scared me.
But you made me a promise.
A promise to be my friend.
A promise to never leave.
You told me I didn’t have to be alone anymore.
You told me beautiful lies,
What I thought I wanted to hear.
So I let you in.
But that friendship, it was awfully one-sided.
You took and you took,
Leaving nothing in return.
Well, I guess you left something:
This infinite blackness.
These dangerous whispers.
You told me I wouldn’t be alone,
But you made me push everyone away.
You took the ones who tried to stay.
And when I told you I was done,
When I couldn’t lose anymore,
You threatened to leave too.
So I begged you to stay,
Because I was too afraid to be alone.
It has been so many years.
I have given you everything.
But grief is a greedy b@stard,
And you still crave more.
You took my family.
You took my friends.
You took my pets.
You took my tears.
You took my future.
You took my dreams.
You took my love.
You took my ability to feel anything at all.
But it’s still not enough.
When will you be done?!
I have nothing left.
I am numb.
I can barely feel you there.
You’re curled around my heart.
You’re burrowed in my brain.
You steal every emotion, every thought.
I tried to cut you out.
The blood drained away.
The world, it grew gray.
But I suppose you’ve kept your promise,
Because you refuse to go away.
I suppose I should thank you,
Even though I almost hate you.
You did what you were meant to,
But I tried to make you something more.
I fed you after midnight.
No one ever warned me.
I guess it is my fault.
I gave you too much room to grow.
I tried to hold you even as you hurt me.
I clung even as I pushed you away.
But I am done now.
I am done with you.
You can let go now.
I won’t hold you to your word.
I’m not afraid to be alone now,
Because I already am.
I don’t need you anymore.
I am ready for my heart to beat free.
Farewell, old friend.
Here are this week’s poems!
Tysm everyone and happy writing! -Yani, Alora
Also, I will be announcing the winner of the month of March next week!
#1
Last week we were laughing like we always do
I never thought about saying goodbye to you
I knew your situation wasn’t getting any better
Your mood changed more than the weather
Why did you have to take another sip
All those pills that you slipped
I thought you’d fix it up like you always did
I somehow knew that you were close to your end
We went to Timmy’s wedding, laughing all night
We almost forgot about our silly little fight
I don’t know how many times I said to stop
But you’d grab another glass and take another sh0t
Thursday morning I got the call
That morning changed it all
I couldn’t end up getting on that plane
Everyone thinks I’m insane
I never went to Madison even though I tried
I guess I just didn’t know how to say goodbye
#2
I’ve known you all my life,
You’re practically like family to me.
The thought of leaving you,
Never crossed my mind.
It was June 12th,
Last day of school.
You were in a purple dress,
That flowed like a stream.
The day went by faster than ever,
How much time I wasted.
I couldn’t even tell you my feelings,
Since forever I have loved you.
I didn’t want to go to another school,
I didn’t want to leave this safe haven.
I didn’t want new friends,
I just wanted you.
The day was finally coming to an end,
It would be the last time I would ever see you.
The last time I saw your smile,
Or the way your eyes lit up when you saw joy.
We exchanged last words of warmth,
That we would write each other over summer.
Our tears shedding through our neat dresses,
Tears that shedded the memories we have shared.
The first day of 3rd grade,
When I asked you to be my friend.
Since then forever together,
The bestest duo you could imagine.
How must I say goodbye?
I don’t want to leave.
I don’t want to imagine a day,
Where there is no you.
Still to this day,
I think of that time.
I wish I could give another goodbye,
But it’s gone now and you’re not in my life.
How do I say goodbye?
When I loved you and I can’t live without,
The thought,
The presence of you.
#3
I’m sorry
I’m sorry that I’m the cause
Of those tears on your cheeks
Of your red eyes
Of your broken voice
You thought I didn’t see
When you fell to your knees
You thought I didn’t hear
When you screamed my name
You thought I didn’t care
When your voice broke
But you didn’t see the tear
That fell when you were gone
You didn’t hear
The anguished cry
That escaped my throat
I know what it’s like
To lose someone
I know what it’s like
To hate someone
And I know what it’s like
To trust someone
And then have them leave
But I hope someday
Someone will pick up the pieces
That I never knew how to find
I want to say
That you’ll forget me
And I’ll forget you
But one of those isn’t true
And after all I did to you
I can’t lie too
But most of all
I’m sorry
That I never knew how to say goodbye
#4
God, how do I say goodbye?
To the memories that haunt me,
That make me think I’m gonna d*e.
It was last year.
God, it was last year.
“Hey, guys!”
Volleyball circles outside,
When the ball dropped we all screamed,
Test after test but it was all chill.
We were just here for the thrill.
Pretzels in silence,
Hands for the bag.
My all time favorite,
Test taking snacks.
Middle school volleyball!
“Hey Coach!”
Reyes you seemed so dope.
Outside hitter,
And late practices.
And laughing,
Facing anxieties and friends,
Praying for our teammates,
With 4 and 17 written on our hands.
Math and English,
God make it stop,
Because the memories,
Fly through me and hardly ever drop,
And it’s squeezing my chest,
Until my heart may give up.
Cause it’s hurting my head,
And squeezing my thoughts,
Cause it’s pulling tears from eyes.
Breathe while I can still try.
“They all left.”
No lunch table for us anymore.
Just a hijacked space, that remains,
No longer safe for our free thoughts to roam,
Because now the people we hate,
And the people we talk,
Are squished at our sides,
Able to hear our thoughts.
No more volleyball circle outside,
All our friends left,
And now it’s died.
Just two lonely players playing,
Me and you,
And back and forth.
The screams I hear,
But we’re alone.
The voices stay,
Though there stand none.
I hear the memories.
I hold on tight.
Even though they sting,
I want them with all my might.
It’s bad I know but I can’t help,
I never learned how to say goodbye.
And here’s the poll!
- #1
- #2
- #3
- #4
