Hewo everyone!!!
I’m going to try not to chat this much bc we have a poetry comp to get into!
This is the first week of my new poetry comp!
Please DM or PM me if you would like more info or if you would like to join!
I need your help deciding which poem will win though…
So here we are!
All these poems are based off of a prompt I gave, ‘Not Always’.
Pls read all the poems before giving your vote.
Also, people who entered in the comp, please don’t vote!
Tysm everyone and happy crafting! -Yani
#1
Not always do I wake up with cheer
Sometimes the mornings drag too long
I trip on my shoes, knock over my mug
But tiny wins can feel so strong
Not always do my friends reply
Sometimes we argue, drift, or fight
Yet laughter brings us back, I try
And suddenly the world feels right
Not always is my courage near
Sometimes I feel unsure, afraid
But little steps make the path clear
And show the strength my heart has made
Not always do the plans succeed
Sometimes they crumble, bend, or break
Yet music, friends, and jokes I need
Remind me life is ours to take
Not always is the day all bright
Sometimes the clouds just hide the sun
But kindness, smiles, and songs of light
Can turn the gray to endless fun
#2
Not always am I the perfect daughter
The one who knows the answer to everything
The one who is flawless with every move
Not always am I the kindest person
The one who is empathetic
The one who knows exactly what to say.
But there is one thing that stays the same
I am pretty, not pretty
I can hide who I am behind a powder cake face
I can hide what I feel behind a plastered smile
I can hide my hurt behind denying nourishment
But I cannot hide who I am
I cannot hide that I don’t feel worthy
For everyone sees it and sees me wither away
So I am not beautiful
I don’t feel it
All I feel is this ugly monster
This ugly monster who is just staring
Staring at their reflection in the mirror
Where did my happiness go
Where did my silly childhood go
Because I’m not happy, or silly, or anything at all
If he never left me for her
I wouldn’t be here right now
I bet I’d be happy
With him and his laughter
The way he knows what to say to bring a smile to my face
When he left me sad and teared up
I began to think of myself as
Not pretty, not pretty
And I felt ugly, for the first time in my life
Not always am I perfect
Not always am I kind
Not always am I funny
But I am always, always, always ugly
Or am I pretty
Am I, for it is my thoughts telling me I’m not
Is it my mind playing a trick on me
Did I need him because I loved him
Or did I need him to make me feel pretty
But I’m already pretty, right
We’re already beautiful
Like stars in the darkness of night
Let me rephrase
I’m not always perfect
I’m not always kind
But there is one thing that stays the same
I’m always, always pretty
Even though I may not always feel
Pretty
#3
“You never smile”
”You’re only happy when you get your way”
”You snap so quickly.”
”You cry too much.”
”We’re always on edge around you.”
”You need to find a coping mechanism.”
”You need to learn control.”
Always, always, your voices in my head
Always, always, these emotions running wild
Always, always, every word you said
Always, always, reminders of a scared child
Always running, always fighting
Always lying, always crying
Always saying I’m ok
Always lost, always confused
Always crying, always dying
Always pretending I don’t care what you say
But I care
I have always cared
I will always care
But I will not always show it
I will not always smile
I will not always pretend
I will not always lie
And say it is ok
I am broken
But
I am learning
I will fight
This monster inside me
I will change
I will not always hide
I will not always cry
I will not always hurt you
To hide how much I love you
I will not always wonder
If it is easier to die
I am not always easy to be around
But don’t give up on me
I won’t give up on me
Because I will not always be broken
Because I want to see
Who I will be
When I am not always this me
#4
Not always was I hurting
And yet here now I sit
Crumbling away inside
For quite a little bit
And not always did I drive people
Away and up a wall
Pushing them to the corners
And forced to catch them all
Not always was it my fault
And somehow now it is
Holding back the breaths I need
Hoping I don’t suffocate from this
Not always was I so hard to love
And now here I am
I used to be so innocent
Like a sweet little lamb
Not always was I lonely
But I have now found
That half of those who love me
Never seem to stick around
And not always was life so hard
And yet it’s come to be
I smile and cry on the same days
The world’s all a mess to me
And not always was it that way
And yet here it now strives
I love it all and choose it all
No matter the pain each time
I hold a breath
And imagine them
The friends I’ve come to know
I sit with smiles perched and patient
While I watch them go
For I’m distraught and they don’t notice
What they mean to me
And yet I sit and dream along
Like it’s all meant to be
Not always had I realized
That pain and love twist
The cling to each other
And hold to one another
And that’s why they exist
#5
Not always have I felt like this
But then again, a few years have passed
Not always did I dread
The ‘hopeful’ start of another day
The opportunities that await me
Or pointless conversations that I need to have
Not always was life this difficult
Where dark fog clouds my head
And a sad, stupid feeling hurts my chest
There once was a time
When I felt not happy, but content
When I didn’t feel disappointed at every end
And not always have I felt
That light and hope and potential have left me
That nothing will become out of me
That this ‘life’ wouldn’t be so hard
And that the energy to try has left me
I would love to think
I have time and want to turn things around
But the truth is, I’ve tried
And only then sometimes did I feel okay
Seldom I thought ‘it was worth it’
And never did I think I’d go through it again
Why would I want to keep going
To fight battles I’ve already lost
When at the end of the day I still dread the next
And the cycle repeats again
But not always have I felt this way
I did once feel loved, and feel okay
I wish I could go back now and take it in
Breathe in the snowy winter breeze and play in the snow again
Then come home and watch cartoons with popcorn
It was that feeling, that life was, and will always be good
The feeling that I will always be happy
And that someone will always love me
That I will always feel appreciated
And I’ll be able to deal with whatever comes my way
Little did I know I won’t always feel that though
That darker days soon will come and never end
That the happiness I used to feel will leave without a trace
And I will reminisce those long gone days
I don’t know the answer to why
Every day feels so difficult to me
Even though I have not always felt this way
Maybe in the back of my mind I still believe
That even now, I will not always feel this way
That I could be on the other side of this, like before
But why should I feel the need
Everything is temporary
And I just don’t even want to try
#6
Not always have flowers grown
Not always have my goals been achieved
Not always had the lawn been mowed
Not always I please others
Sometimes my words or results untie the knots
Supporting each other together
Sometimes my words come out before
I process them
Coming down like raindrops
Sometimes my results make others
Silent
As if the world heard something forbidden
Not always do I take action
Sometimes I stand passively
Staring at the scene, unsure what to do
Sometimes I do not pick up trash
Or cheer up a stranger when they’re down
Not always have I been eager
Eager to learn, willing to participate
Sometimes the dart of words people say
Miss my head entirely
Sometimes what people say
With a grain of salt
Reaches my head and disturbs me
For weeks
But why not always
Why don’t I say - sometimes
Why don’t I switch the words around
Sometimes have my flowers grown
Reached full bloom
Dropping seeds of hope
Sometimes have my goals been achieved
Reaching high scores
Of helping someone
Sometimes I take action
Not always do I stand passively
Staring at the scene, unsure what to do
Not always do I forget to pick up trash
Or cheer up a stranger when they’re down
Isn’t it better
To think of the hope that’s still there
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- #3
- #4
- #5
- #6
